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7/18
I can never tell you. I can never tell you the truth. You can never know that I want nothing more than your attention. You can never know that it breaks my heart when you don't choose me. When you choose her, even though she has chosen someone else.
I can never tell you that I think I might really like you. It would complicate things too much. It would make things very messy. I can never say that I think you have the perfect body and a wonderful personality - you always make me laugh and I feel I can be myself around you. That what you think is unattractive, I find so beautiful.
I can never tell you because you don't feel the same way. Because we are just friends. I can never tell you how much I love when you pick me, even though I'm more awkward than she is. I can never tell you because it might ruin everything. And I don't want to ruin what we have now. Because it's really great, I think. So I'll keep quiet, it's probably best that way.
I wish I could tell you. I really do. I wish I was able to communicate my feelings and be sure of them. But I know I can't. So I won't. I'll keep it to myself. I will never tell you how much I like you._________________________________________________________________________________
8/5
I want to kiss you. I want to cuddle with you all night. I want to wake up in your arms and kiss you again. I want to scream from the rooftops that I like you more and more each day - that the more we talk the more I want you. I want you to feel the same way. I want to be the only person you see. I want to be the person that you like. I want tell you all of this.
It's getting harder and harder to not show it. But I don't want to ruin what we have already - an amazing friendship. You are my best friend and I can't describe how much I like you. This can't happen. I can't like you. But I do, oh I do. I like you so much I want to cry because I know it can never happen and you can never know.
Would you be freaked out if you knew? Would things be weird between us? Is there a chance that you might feel the same way? Then what? This could never actually happen. It makes my heart hurt.
I'm not good at relationships. But I know I like you. I know that I want to kiss you and talk to you and cuddle with you. I want to spend time with you. I want to be with you. I want to post this. I want you to see it, but only if you feel the same way. It would crush me if you didn't. So I'm not going to post this and you're not going to find out, despite what I really want to happen.
