Resolution

     I'm making a resolution. I'm taking control of my life. From here on out I'm done with thinking about cutting myself. I don't need to do it. I need to find other ways to cope. I can draw, I can talk to a friend, I can write, I can go for a walk or run. I don't need to hurt myself. My body deserves to be treated better than that and my mind needs to stop thinking about it.
     I'm ready to be happy and it is time to move on. So I'm making a resolution to stop thinking about self harm and to stop using rubber bands. I'm done with all of it. There are healthier ways to cope and I'm going to find them. I'm going to use the things I have now and I'm going to find more. I don't need to do this anymore. I don't want to do it anymore.
     I'm taking control of my life. I will feel anxious, I will feel overwhelmed, I will feel sad, angry, or frustrated. And that is okay, because I have people who understand and who can help me deal with these things. I'm deciding to be happy, even if it is just for now. I'm going to do my best to keep the clouds away. This is my life and I would rather be happy than sad.