Update

     Since I haven't posted anything since November, it's probably time for an update. I'm now 20. I just finished my second year of college at Pace University. I decided what my major will be - History and Women & Gender Studies (my sister is doing History and Literature). I gave up on the psychology, but I would still consider it an area of interest.
     As I may have mentioned before, my sister and I lived in a triple with a girl who had been a friend from our first year at school. The first semester did not go very well but the second one did. We started to finally get along. It was an adjustment to live with someone else but a valuable lesson. Just before the Fall semester ended was when things between my sister and I started to get rough. I felt as though I was being left behind. She was finding herself and I was not. She was carving out her space. I felt like she had better relationships with our mutual friends. She had recently come out and I'm still trying to figure out my sexuality. I felt very left out. In short, we were starting to separate. Our paths were starting to diverge. And I were watching it happen. This was very hard for me, but it was also hard for my sister to see me that way and feel like she had caused it. She didn't want to stop what she was doing (I didn't want her to either) but she didn't want to see me hurting. It was difficult.
     Now we're home for the summer and things seem to be better for the most part. We're still in the process of separating. I think things may only be better here because we are forced into the same box and it's hard to branch out here. We'll see where things go. We're both trying to navigate the route of separation. There is no map, no hard or fast rule. There is no set time it's supposed to happen and no set way that it turns out. But when it happens things may not be bad, but they will never be the same as they were before.